Monday 28 February 2011

Inspired by childhood

Northlands
I always looked forward to the tumble over to Yorkshire to visit my grandparent’s house. Just visible from the road through the trees, I could picture them pottering away inside or, as was often the case, outside. Northlands was its name.
It was a huge house. As an eight year old I never really contemplated it, but I’d imagine it was built in the 1900s. The rooms were large and spacious, with bulky wooden bay windows, a narrow cellar and a drawing room - not like the depressing terraces of the ‘30s, or the cookie-cutter detached houses of more modern times.
It was a perfect house for grandparents. It had a massive garden; I’ve since been told they were frequently approached to sell some off as a housing plot. In the summer, snapdragons in magenta and orange crawled up a trellis in the centre, separating the nondescript area of grass by the garage from the proper garden. This was where the swing was, a slightly rusted green thing that had been there since my dad was a child. Despite its age, it showed no signs of bowing to the northern winds, or incessant winter rain. It was the first thing my sister Jasmine and I ran to after our two-hour car journey. We craved the wind in our hair, and for our feet to touch the bottom branches of the tree that hung over it. It made us feel like humans again, instead of suitcases travelling somewhere, squashed and overheated. People often joked that the resilient swing reminded them of my grandparents, that they’d still be there sturdy as ever in ten years time.
When I was thirteen though, my grandma suffered a stroke. They were unable to cope with such a vast house afterwards, so Northlands was begrudgingly put on the market and snapped up. Grandpa’s greenhouse was left behind, next to the swing. He used to always be in there, watering his tomatoes, chuckling to himself as we chased each other around the garden. Sometimes he’d call us in to try something, lifting us up to grab a grape from the vines slung across the roof, the juice making our fingers sticky with the artificial heat.
There was an outside fruit and vegetable patch too, row upon regimented row, perfectly aligned. Fresh sweet-tasting peas that we popped from their pods, and blackberries and raspberries that Grandma let us collect with a basket, pretending to be Little Red Riding Hood. We’d walk back up the steps to the house with our treasure, and she would transform it into a pie or tart, perfectly browned with sugar that crackled in our mouths as we ate. It created a challenge for us after the stroke, as she became diabetic. We spent a lot of time in their new house concocting various recipes using sweeteners and sugar-free substitutes, but the berries always remained home-grown, some things just couldn’t be compromised on.
We never needed a television or toys at Northlands. Instead, we’d play hide and seek. There were so many places to hide that one game could often take an hour, even with Grandma helping. I’d climb into the mechanic’s pit in Grandpa’s garage, scared of the dark, but sure that I’d be difficult to find, or sneak the keys from the back door and unlock the air-raid shelter. A few times Jasmine gave up, and Grandma had to wander around shouting my name until I came out, after eventually realising that it wasn’t some trick for me to lose. Whoever won would get a stick of Juicy Fruit from her secret recipe drawer. Mum and Dad wouldn’t let us have chewing gum, so it was the ultimate prize.
Even now, that smell of must and crumbling brick takes me back to hiding in the shelter. It always made me wrinkle my nose, but never stopped me from returning. It was such a contrast when Grandma and Grandpa moved into the new house, as all the smells seemed so alien - fresh paint and medicine. The furniture felt cramped in the small, modern rooms, although the same wallpaper and colours as in the old house had been lovingly applied to the perfectly levelled walls. It provided the sense of familiarity that they desperately craved.
Mornings at Northlands were always fun, if we got to stay over. We’d be up and about early, and occasionally we’d take cereal and toast and eat in the travelling caravan that perched on the driveway, brought out of slumber for an hour in preparation for its annual two-week tour of France.
After breakfast we’d feed the fish. The house was set atop a small hill, so the pond had three tiers - the bottom pond was more like a lake to us as children. Now and again there would be a bubble of frogspawn in the corner, and we’d put a margarine carton around it to stop the fish eating it. If we stayed for a few days, we’d check it every day for signs of the mummy frog, waiting for the day when the slimy tadpoles would emerge from the mush and wriggle around the algae like animated commas.
Grandpa still has a pond, though it is considerably smaller. If we visit there now, Jasmine and I always make a habit of wandering outside to sprinkle the little pellets in the water, and an empty margarine carton stays in the fridge the year round, just in case.
Sometimes we’d go into Hornsea, the town where they lived. Avid churchgoers and well-wishers, my grandparents would know everyone we walked past, and just getting to Candy Corner, the old fashioned sweet shop, would take twice as long as necessary. At this point, me and Jasmine would be pulling at their hands, the scent of sherbet and gummy bears having wafted into our noses with each shut of the shop door. We got traditional sweets; lemon bonbons or midget gems, and Jas and I would swap some, arguing over the fairness of getting two fizzy cola bottles for a chocolate eclair.
Entertained with our sweets, we’d go into their church, a dull building from the outside that was majestic once through the doors. Grandma would go and make us cups of tea in the kitchen, and Jas and I would sit on each of Grandpa’s knees while he practised his organ playing. On some days he’d let us play, and the shrill of the pipes always made me jump. I remember feeling a sense of grandeur from taming such a powerful machine.
At Christmas and birthdays, Grandpa is swamped with cards from people of the congregation. I’m astonished he ends up with more than our family of four. Every week, he walks into Hornsea, and still plays the organ to those that come to the service. After so long providing Grandma with round-the-clock care, I think he enjoys feeling needed by such a large group of people, and it fills the void.
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I drove past Northlands a while ago, and it is completely different. Its potential for PVC windows, a conservatory and a large modern kitchen meant that the family that moved in ripped it to pieces. I think I’d rather it was like that, though. If it remained there unchanged, it would make me sad at all our family memories still floating around its rooms. Instead, there is a BMW 4x4 on the drive, and luminous girly pink paint on the walls of one of the bedrooms. Northlands, if that is still its name, is making new memories now, and I can keep it how it was in my head forever. Perfect.

Sunday 27 February 2011

Weekly Update!

Reading Week!

So this week was the best week of each term- reading week. A week supposed to be used productively to get work done, and well... read. For most students though, it means lie-ins, a trip home and as little work as possible!

My reading week this year did actually begin with some work, and I managed to reach the half-way mark with my dissertation- hurray, the end is in sight. On Tuesday I went to The Pendle Witch with the fashion soc girls for some lovely pub grub. I had chicken, ham and leek pie and a couple of glasses of wine as a reward for my hard work. On Wednesday I did some tour guiding on campus to earn my pennies, and then caught an evening train home. Lovely to sleep in my own bed again!


On Thursday I went to York with my family (see previous post) and returned on Friday. In the evening I met up with a couple of friends from home who happened to be around, and we went for some drinks. Considering we only went to my local town, I had a brilliant night, as we actually went to places we wouldn't normally. The first was one of the three Belgian bars that Altrincham has, where you are presented with a huge menu that is solely beer based to choose your drinks from, and it is table service which is always a bonus. I had three different fruity beers, which were delicious. Afterwards we went to a bar called The Green Room, that had a live reggae style band playing. We finished in a cocktail bar called The Classroom, where I had an FBI- which had ice cream in it mmm!


Yesterday I travelled back to Lancaster early with the intention of getting some more diss done, but that didn't happen. In the evening we had a reunion for the play I was in last term, it was awesome to see everyone together again and I had a fab night. This post is yet another way of procrastinating from work again though, so I better get to it!

Friday 25 February 2011

Traveller's Tales...

York

Yesterday, I headed further up the country to visit York with my parents and sister. On the way there we stopped off at the White Rose centre in Leeds for a spot of shopping. I didn't really get much, just some shoes and a ring from Primark, but it was retail therapy all the same! After having lunch at Subway, we continued on our journey.

We were staying at the Holiday Inn by the race course. We arrived and dumped our bags before going into the city centre, which was about a two mile walk. The last time I was in York was approximately five years ago, so it was good to have another wander around to see some of the historical sites, such as Ouse Bridge and the city walls. We popped into a couple of shops, but mainly just absorbed the atmosphere. There was a really cool little continental market on, that appeared to sell everything from ostrich burgers to potted plants, so that was a nice surprise for us upon arrival.

Completely by coincidence, we bumped into my Aunt and Uncle near the Shambles area, so went to a pub called The Old Swan for a drink with them. It was lovely inside, and we decided to call back in the evening to eat there, as the menu looked tasty. After we had said goodbye to our visitors, we went for a look outside the Minster, and the surrounding buildings, which are Tudor style and very pretty. We then called in at The Star, which is supposedly the most haunted pub in Britain. Unfortunately we didn't experience any paranormal activity (though that is probably a good thing) but I did enjoy a delicious latte there!

At this point it was dark and getting towards evening so we went back to The Swan for our food. We had a three course set menu that was only £13.95, and the food was gorgeous. I had deep fried Brie with cranberry sauce, followed by steak and chips and then raspberry and rhubarb crumble with custard. You can't beat the British classics!

We then went on a ghost walk. There are loads to choose from, but we went with one that had five stars on Trip Advisor and was supposed to be the original, started in 1973. It wasn't a gimmicky one that required costumes and cheap tricks, just a tour around some of the sights that had stories attached to them. It was interesting, and had a few moments where I jumped! I think if I were to do one again though, I'd go for one in between the two, as I would have liked a few more really creepy stories.

We then walked back with weary feet, and played a couple of cards games before hitting the sack. The next day, we checked out and went to the McArthur Glen outlet on the way home. It wasn't as good as other ones I've been to, but there were a couple of shops with massive reductions, and I tried a few things on (though unfortunately came away empty handed!). A thoroughly enjoyable couple of days.

Monday 21 February 2011

Winter Views...

Paul- 3 stars ***

Last night I went to see Paul at the cinema with my boyfriend. It was one of those films where I saw the trailer before another film, chuckled a little and vowed I'd see it, and for once I actually did. It stars Simon Pegg and Nick Frost, and having seen Shaun of the Dead and Hot Fuzz, I thought it would be a decent watch.

The premise of it is fairly simple, if far-fetched. Two nerdy comic-book type guys (Pegg and Frost) go on a road-trip around America to visit the top UFO sighting hotspots. Whilst travelling, they encounter an alien called Paul (voiced by Seth Rogen), and so ensues their mission to return him to his mother ship whilst keeping his whereabouts secret from the mysterious 'Big Guy'.

This has a good plot, and after a while you find yourself believing that it is actually happening, as while Paul is obviously an alien, he does have his flaws (he is only invisible when he holds his breath), which helps to convince us that he is a plausible character. There are some good side stories, and a talented support actress in Kristen Wiig, who plays a bible-bashing young woman called Ruth, who the trio kidnap after she spots Paul by mistake. She then has her life turned upside down upon realising that God doesn't exist.

This was the only qualm I had with the film, as I felt a little uncomfortable at times at how anti- religion parts were. It wasn't so much offensive, but more that the characters they used to show 'Christians' were highly caricatured and stereotyped, and I thought it was a little crude. I couldn't help but feel like it had been potentially marketed at people with the same views, and not being one of those people, I found it a bit insensitive. This is not to say that I am a devout church-goer, far from it, I just thought it could have been portrayed slightly better.

All criticisms aside, I would still definitely recommend it. It is funny and light-hearted, yet has some emotional parts, a good message behind it and some very believable acting. That said, I do think it is an easy job for Pegg and Frost, as they are essentially Graeme and Clive. They make no attempt in interviews to hide that they are massive geeks themselves (and for anyone that's ever seen Spaced, you can believe it!), but say that they have just been fortunate enough to make it big. Fair play. I also love the fact that it came out on Valentine's Day. Anyone who was dragged to see it on the day probably enjoyed it a lot more than a slushy romcom!

Sunday 20 February 2011

Weekly Update!

Food, Friends and Fashion!

The beginning of this week was kind of slow, I did a bit of work, some grocery shopping and hit the gym. I also did some food experiments. I made eggs Benedict, including my own hollandaise sauce from scratch, and a twist on a traditional Victoria sponge through the addition of mixed spice to the mixture, and rhubarb jam for the centre- it was delicious!

On Wednesday I met up with my friend from home who also goes to Lancaster University, and we had lunch in one of the cafes on campus, which I had never been in. I was very impressed, mainly as a pot of tea was just 80p- Venue will definitely be seeing more of me in the future!

On Thursday I went to my friends on campus' flat for tea, cake and a gossip which was fun, and then that evening I went to The Friary for 'a few' drinks. It was an eventful night to say the least, and I definitely felt it the following day!

On Friday the Fashion Society took part in a mini fashion show at The Sugarhouse, called 'Fashion Through The Ages' as part of their 'Old's Cool' night. Despite models cancelling, and it being very last minute (we sorted all the clothes, order and practised just 3 hours before going on the catwalk!) it went really well, and the nerves were all worth it in the end. I was shattered from the night before, so basically left as soon as we had finished, after getting a shot to calm myself down, which I promptly spilt all over the counter as I was shaking so much!


Yesterday I chained myself to my desk, and managed to crank out 800 words of dissertation, which I was proud of. As a reward I went to watch a friend's band play in a small pub in town, and I was pleasantly surprised at what a fun time I had. They were really good, and the crowd participated so it was a really cool atmosphere to be surrounded by. We went for a few drinks afterwards, before heading home- I have definitely had about triple my alcohol intake this week, it's a good job it's reading week next week so I have time to catch up with work and re-cooperate slightly!

Tonight (after hopefully having another successful dissertation day) I am being cooked lamb stifado by my boyfriend, which should be tasty, and then we're going to watch 'Paul' at the cinema... watch this space for a review!

Wednesday 16 February 2011

Inspired by my rabbit!

Florrie
Mum was crying again when I got up this morning. I’m sort of used to it now because it happens so often. I just go and sit in the kitchen and watch Florrie. She has really nice eyes that don’t look happy or sad, and I like that she can just sit in her hutch, crunching the food that I give her, without having to feel anything.
Sometimes, when I get her out and she’s running around the house, her eyes go really big so I can see the white bits and then I know she’s scared. I know she must be scared because she only does it when things make her jump, like when Mum turns the vacuum cleaner on, or I stand up too quickly from the table or the sofa. When her eyes do that I start to move really slowly and put my hand in front of her eyes and then stroke her.
Rabbits can only see sideways, so you can’t touch them straightaway from above or they get frightened. I read that in a book that Grandma got me for Christmas. It’s called ‘Looking After Your Pet Rabbit’ and has a picture of a big black and white bunny on the front. Florrie doesn’t look like that though. She’s all grey, with little white fluffy bits under her chin. Her ears are smaller too, because she’s a dwarf rabbit and they don’t get big ears.
When I first got her I carried her home in a box from the pet shop and she was tiny. The box was white and had little holes in so that she could breathe. Even though she was small, I sometimes had to give the box to Mum to carry, because it was too heavy. She’s a lot bigger than that now though. Mum thought she was supposed to stay small, and now we might have to buy a new cage so that she can fit in it better. I think that might be why Mum keeps crying, because she said we can’t afford to buy a new hutch and that Florrie’s only a stupid rabbit so she wouldn’t notice anyway.
I don’t think Florrie’s stupid though. She can push a ball around with her nose and it has a bell inside so you can hear her playing. I like it because the bell sounds nice and happy so I know she’s having fun. I don’t think stupid animals can play like that. I think things like slugs and flies are stupid because they just crawl around in circles or fly into windows and that doesn’t seem very fun.
Mum says Florrie is stupid because she eats her own poo, but I was watching an animal programme on TV at Dad’s the other day, and monkeys sometimes eat their poo and they’re really clever. They can open coconuts with rocks and give the zookeepers hugs and that’s almost as clever as humans. I think Florrie eats her poo because she knows it’s good for her. Like I eat carrots even though I hate them because I want to be big and strong when I’m older. And I want to see in the dark.
Rabbits can see in the dark. I know because once I heard Mum shouting at someone in her bedroom and it woke me up, so I crept downstairs to see Florrie. Even with the lights off she still stuck her nose in between the bars of her hutch to smell my hand so she must have seen me come in. It cheers me up when she does that, because if I go into Mum’s room in the middle of the night she shouts at me, but Florrie never makes a single sound.
I wish she could make a noise though, like cats and dogs bark or purr when they’re happy. Florrie just stares at me so I don’t know when she’s happy or not. She has a cardboard tube to climb through and a basket full to the top with straw. It’s quite prickly though, and sometimes she wriggles her nose if it itches from eating it. It’s really funny, because she looks like when you see cartoon rabbits like Bugs Bunny on the TV. On some days I’m allowed to give her the leftover vegetables from the fridge. If I were a rabbit I think I’d like that, so I think she’s happy even though she doesn’t bark or purr.
I don’t like it when I have to go to Dad’s and leave her behind. I know Mum feeds her, but she doesn’t stroke her or get her out to play and she must get bored in her too small hutch with no-one’s hand to sniff. Whenever I come home from Dad’s I get her out and cuddle her really close to me. She is so close that I can hear her heart beating super fast and I think it must mean she’s excited to see me.
My heart beats fast when I’m going high on my swing in the back yard. Mum shouts at me that I’ll fall off and hurt myself, but I like it because I can see into my neighbour’s garden and it has loads of pretty flowers in, and a pond with a fountain and fishes like the one in the park where I go to feed the ducks. I can smell all the flowers when I’m high up too, and it reminds me of how the house used to smell when Dad bought Mum flowers and she’d put them in a big glass vase on the windowsill. The garden looks horrid in winter though, because the trees’ leaves fall off, and the flowers go all droopy and sad-looking. Last year when it was really cold I saw one of the fishes floating in the pond and not moving. Mum said it must have died because its heart had frozen. That scared me because I heard Dad shout at Mum before he left that she had a cold heart. I hope that doesn’t mean she’s going to die.
I know she cries a lot, but she can be fun sometimes. When she’s happy both of us sit on the floor and get Florrie out and we make a square with our legs with her in the middle, and she hops over our legs when she wants to escape. That’s when I have two best friends. But I only have one when Mum cries, because then she won’t play with me. Florrie always wants to play and that’s why she’s the bestest friend ever. I don’t care if she’s just a stupid rabbit because I love her.

Monday 14 February 2011

Winter Reads...

The Year Of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion- 3 stars ***

Yet another course book, but rather than give up after reading the recommended amount (the first couple of chapters) I continued, and finished it within a few days as it really interested me.

'Life changes fast. Life changes in an instant. You sit down to dinner and life as you know it ends.'

It is a book that falls under the creative non-fiction umbrella, that revolves around the author, detailing her experiences after her partner dies suddenly from a heart attack, and her daughter is taken seriously ill. Having never been through something so traumatic myself, it was something new for me to read about, and really gave me an insight into what a difficult situation it much be.

Despite the seemingly morbid subject matter, this wasn't a particularly depressing read, though I know some of the other members of my class seemed to think so. I personally found it to be incredibly raw and moving, as she literally strips down her life, evaluates her emotions and really pours her heart out, even though some of the actions that she resorts to for any normal person would appear to be embarrassing or pathetic. It is the distinct lack of 'putting on a brave face' that I enjoyed about this book, as after all, losing someone who you have lived and been with for over thirty years would completely change your life, and hiding all feelings away wouldn't help or change that.

Another feature of this book, is the frequent use of excerpts from medical textbooks, snippets of her partner's novels and quotes from famous poets and writers that she uses to reinforce her points, and give more definition or clarity to what she is talking about. I liked this aspect, as although at times it appeared to be almost essay-like, it showed the measures she went to to try and get an explanation for why this happened to her, and to achieve closure, which I think was relatable.

I would recommend this book for anyone who wants a relatively quick read that is poignant and leaves you thinking. Again, I'm sure this would depend on personal experience, but I can imagine it would be a comfort for anybody who has lost someone in their lives, to show that you can come out the other side, and anything that you do to help the grieving process is perfectly normal.

Sunday 13 February 2011

Weekly Update!

Cutting, Bleaching, Gigging, Guiding and Laddering!


This week's been pretty varied, which in my opinion is always the best way to live. On Monday after I had finished my seminar I went into town and got my hair cut at Toni and Guy (it was a half price model day, I don't spend any more than £20 on my hair!) Then I popped into the library and chanced across the complete illustrated works of Lewis Carroll. All thoughts of work then banished, I went to the Yummy Cupcake Company and read, accompanied by a cookies 'n' cream cupcake and a lovely cup of tea- lush! In the evening my boyfriend came round and cooked a gorgeous sausage casserole for us. Then we discovered Tool Academy, so spent the rest of the night catching up with the series!

Tuesday and Wednesday were very uneventful, except I dyed my hair, so it is now rootless and platinum once more. On Thursday I went to Oxfam with a few friends to choose our clothes for a fashion show we are doing soon, where we are customising second hand clothes and then (hopefully) selling them afterwards. In the evening I went for a few drinks in my local pub (which is surprisingly nice) with some friends. There also happened to be a quiz on that night that was free to enter, so we had a go, although we didn't even manage to make the top five!

On Friday I went to the gym and did some work before going to a last minute Fairport Convention gig in Morecambe with a couple of friends who had a spare ticket. I'd never even heard of them, let alone listened to their music, but after sampling them on Youtube, I was looking forward to it. They were really good, despite being unlike anything I would normally listen to, and even the support were worth getting there early for, which is a rarity in my experience. We caught a bus back to Lancaster, and then I made a last minute decision to go to Sugarhouse, even though I was wearing trainers and a studded belt! I had an awesome night though, as loads of people were out that I knew.

On Saturday I had to be up early as I was tourguiding for prospective students and their parents on campus. I had a horrendous headache and was starving, but managed to last until it finished at 3pm before going home for a 'nap' that lasted two hours! That evening was a 1920s themed LUFS social that had been planned for a while, so although I wasn't feeling on top form I still went out. Whether it was the amount of alcohol that I consumed, or there was still some in my system from the previous night, but I proceeded to get rather past the tipsy stage, resulting in a 12 inch pizza being consumed, and a clumsy trip over on the walk home that led to a ladder in my favourite tights. I'm clearly making the most of my last few months at university!

Tuesday 8 February 2011

Winter Reads...

Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter S. Thompson- 3 stars ***

Probably more famously known as the film starring Johnny Depp, I decided to read this as my boyfriend had a copy and it relates to the course I am doing at the moment on Creative Non-Fiction. Hunter S. Thompson was in the first group of journalists who took up this revolutionary style that he refers to as 'Gonzo Journalism'- where real- life occurrences are reported upon much like in traditional articles; except that these add in personal experiences, opinions, literary devices such as metaphor and dialogue and in some instances, experiment with layout.

The story for this particular book is simple, a man (Hunter S. Thompson) is driving to Las Vegas with his attourney, a Samoan, in order to write an article on the 'collapsed dream of the American sixties'. However, these two men are also equipped with lots of money, guns and copious amounts of illegal drugs, which mean that their journey is filled with hallucinations, very bizarre and often dangerous encounters, run-ins with the police and a lot of quick thinking!

I really enjoyed this, as it was so different to anything I have read before, not just in style, but also in content. It almost reads like a very surreal diary, so that you get completely twisted up in the road-trip with them which has a brilliant effect. I also thoroughly enjoyed the illustrations that were in my copy, despite them being rather graphic at times!

Even though this is a piece of non-fiction, it has a very other-worldly feel to it; partially because of the events that occur to the characters, but also because of the way the words are crafted:
'I stopped at a red light and got lost, for a moment, in a sunburst of flesh in the cross-walk: fine sinewy thighs, pink mini-skirts, ripe young nipples, sleeveless blouses, long sweeps of blonde hair, pink lips and blue eyes- all the hallmarks of a dangerously innocent creature.'

I would recommend this to anyone who wants to escape their own everyday lives and get lost in a world of sex, drugs and car chases; and don't mind being shocked at how risqué journalism can be!

Monday 7 February 2011

Traveller's Tales...

Hitting The 'Pool

It was my boyfriend and I's anniversary on Saturday, so we fancied a weekend away, having gone to Edinburgh last year. We settled on Liverpool, as I had never been, and he said it was a really cool city, so we booked our trains.

We arrived to a very windy reception on Friday evening, and got picked up by the lady we were staying with in Birkenhead (a friend of my dad's). After dumping our stuff and sprucing up a bit we walked to a local pub called The Swan where everything was ridiculously cheap. I had a 4oz steak with a mushroom and red onion sauce, chips and peas, 2 glasses of wine and a starter for £8! It was tasty as well. After we had eaten (and finished watching the six nation's rugby match) we walked to another pub called the Canaervon Castle for more drinks, before getting a taxi home as it was so blustery!

On Saturday we got a bus into Liverpool city centre. We had a wander around Mathew Street (birthplace of The Beatles) and the area nearby which included an amazing Vivienne Westwood shop, and a lovely retro cafe called 'Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds' which we had a late lunch in.
I got a bargain 50s style dress from a little boutique, as well as some classic Primark steals, and then we walked to the docklands to try and find somewhere to eat later that evening. We got some nice photographs of the water and skyline as it was just coming to dusk, it was just a shame about the driving rain that got us absolutely soaked!

After a bit of a struggle to get home as we couldn't find our bus stop, we quickly got changed into evening gear, had a glass of very nice wine that we had been given as a present and then went back into Liverpool for our meal. We had eventually chosen Las Iguanas, a Latin American restaurant that I have been curious to try out, as I have seen a few of them dotted about around the country.


I was adventurous and ordered a Cherry Bomb cocktail to drink which was delicious, and then for starters we shared 'Totopos' (nachos with guacamole) and 'Molletes' (ciabatta with refried beans and melted cheese). For main course I chose a Brazilian dish called 'Xinxim' which was quite similar to a traditional Thai curry- chicken in a creamy crayfish, lime and peanut sauce. It was served with asparagus, rice and deep fried plantain which I had never tried before so was good to sample something different. It was all amazing, but sadly I couldn't finish it all as the portions were so generous. Some of the desserts sounded awesome as well, I'll have to remember to skip a starter next time! After tea we walked to The Living Room, and had a couple of drinks, before catching a night bus home.


On Sunday we had a brilliant cooked breakfast courtesy of our host, and then we packed up all our things and caught a bus back into the city. Our train wasn't for another few hours, so we paid to lock our bags up and went to the Tate Modern. Despite some very strange artwork that I didn't think seemed particularly special, there were also some interesting sculptures and a few paintings by well-known artists such as Picasso, Matisse and Salvador Dali. The last time I visited an art gallery I was considerably younger, so it was good to relive the experience with a more mature outlook on the exhibitions.

Then, at 3.31pm on Sunday 6th February we caught a train back from the Capital of Culture to the land of work and life that is Lancaster. An awesome weekend that I didn't want to end!

Sunday 6 February 2011

Weekly Update!

Family Fortunes, Takeaway and an Impromptu Night Out!

I'll keep this post short and sweet seen as my last one was so mammoth! I also have little to talk about as I have spent the weekend in Liverpool (see tomorrow's post) so didn't do much else during the week.

On Tuesday I made a really tasty beef casserole with roast potatoes, which was a well needed hearty meal after what feels like weeks of turkey drummers, pizzas and chips (not that they're not tasty...). After tea a few of my flatmates from last year came round for a catch up, and quite a lot of alcohol! We ended up playing a Family Fortunes game that I got for Christmas, that my team obviously won; and then we got a takeaway at about 2am. Clearly I was hungry that day!

On Wednesday I saw Black Swan (see previous post) which was really good, but it also horrendously freaked me out, so much so that I gatecrashed my boyfriend's night out. This then turned into a mini bar crawl, and then cocktails in Lounge, so what I thought would be an early post-cinema night became a 3am walk to his friend's house for one beer (the irrational habits of the drunken mind!) followed by a mission to the other side of town to get home, and a bedtime of 6am!

Thursday was a lazy day of minimal work, and in the evening I watched The Hours and consumed copious amounts of Cadbury's Whole Nut chocolate while packing for my weekend away. Dissertation can wait!

Inspired by an experience

House For One
Living alone. Those two words seem to inspire fear in any student. For many, leaving the comfort of home in first year is a hard enough change to adjust to, and sibling jealousy develops just because the one still there gets proper hearty food and their laundry done for them. It’s something taken for granted pre-university, as well as always having someone to go running to when you need change for the bus, or to help explain how you claim your tax back without resorting to the internet. For the majority of students though, this dependency shifts when the nest has been flown, either onto new flatmates, a boy/girlfriend, or in my case - myself.
I’ve always been pretty independent, I had a job at sixteen, was driving at seventeen and had been in a three year relationship at eighteen, so for me uni was the new start, the real deal. But when two weeks in, I had no car to travel wherever I pleased, couldn’t get a job for love or money and had finished with the boyfriend who was holding me back, I was hit with the realisation that this was it.
The novelty of a student loan to spend and going out drinking every night had worn off; and I was burnt out, bored and craving a challenge. At home I was always busy, so being resigned to a bedroom, corridor and kitchen that I had to share with six others was like putting a hamster in a ball - I could wander around, but ultimately, I felt trapped.
Rather than solve the problem in a drastic manner that required maximum effort (I am still a student after all) I tried a few different things to sate my desire for more. I joined the theatre group, and performed in ’Twelfth Night’. I made friends, filled my time with rehearsals and line-learning and fed the exhibitionist in me by appearing on stage for two nights. And that was it. After a hectic eight week whirlwind, it was all over, and I returned to the drudgery of a three room world where getting a takeaway was an event.
So I tried the next thing. I’ve always been into fashion, and had found a kindred spirit in my boyfriend’s flatmate, so we started the idea of creating a fashion society. After all the formalities, LUFS was set up, and soon we had 38 members, a trip to The Clothes Show planned, and a magazine in production. One thing I hadn’t realised though was how much work running a society was. Handling an email account, running meetings, organising socials and prepping a publication with just two people was a nightmare, and ridiculously time consuming. Exec members changed with the wind once they realised how big a commitment it was, and funds were tight. I began regretting setting myself such a demanding task, and relished the snatched hours I had to watch rubbish TV, and bake fairy cakes.
Then the biggest opportunity reared its head - living alone in third year. Having lived in a house of twelve previously it would be a massive adjustment. My parents had bought a house, with the premise of renting it out, but it had space for four, and we were a group of six. Six people with a bickered division that meant we were split into two threes, and there were no houses for three. My boyfriend was the first to go, having been offered a space with four other guys. Then a house for four was found, leaving one left over. At the prospect of living sans rent for a year, I jumped ship and offered to settle the problem.
When I started telling people, the reactions were laughable.
“You’re living on your own? Like completely?”
“Alone? But…why?”
“Oh my god, did no one want to live with you?”
I found it astonishing that people just couldn’t comprehend. The number of times I explained the situation only to be faced with a blank stare was ridiculous. What did all these people intend on doing after university? Live with their parents their whole lives, or wait patiently until a relationship got serious enough to get a mortgage and settle down? I felt quite capable of managing a house by myself, and thought that at worst it would mean less distraction from the dreaded dissertation.
I spent my summer choosing paint colours and bedspreads, making cushion covers and tie-backs, and choosing wallpaper for my feature wall; I loved it. I changed an empty magnolia shell into my own house, where unlike a typical student residence, the kitchen sides were visible and I had more than one cupboard for my clothes.
As the holidays dragged to an end, I was excited to move in and start my new venture. I had visions of sitting on the lounge floor surrounded by Vogue magazines with no one to complain about it, and eating at a real table because - shock horror - I had a dining room. Term started, and I looked forward to the end of the day, so I could go home to my own space, where I appreciated watching rubbish TV as I had paid for the license, and if I baked fairycakes they weren’t all gone the next time I came downstairs.
Slowly but surely, people turned. “Oh my god, you’re so lucky having this all to yourself!”
“This is like a real grown-up house.”
“It’s so nice and clean!”
My boyfriend and I didn’t have to go to our rooms to escape everyone, and my friends asked to have parties at mine so they didn’t have to annoy their housemates.
So sure, I have to remember to put the bins out, and I’m the one who has to get up early to let the gas man in. There’s just me to de-grease the oven, and it’s only my fault if I forget to lock the door. But I’ve not died of loneliness. I don’t think every creak of the gate is a burglar coming to get me. I’m more than happy in my pretty little house. Where just I live. Alone.

Thursday 3 February 2011

Winter Views...

Black Swan- 5 stars *****

I was eagerly awaiting this to come out, after I saw it featured on Film 2011 before Christmas. I am a huge Natalie Portman fan, and after reading the synopsis on IMDB it seemed like the type of film I would enjoy. I'd spoken to a few people who had seen it and they all raved that it was amazing, so I had high hopes.

The story is pretty simple, a senior dancer (Winona Ryder) retires from a ballet company, leaving the top spot in need of a new star. Nina (Portman) has been at the company for a long time, and works hard to obtain the role- as the Swan Queen in Swan Lake. However, despite embodying the innocence of the White Swan, she also needs to show the seduction of the Black Swan. Another of the dancers, Lily (Mila Kunis) is much better at this side of the role, and the competition and demands of the performance play with Nina's sanity. She suffers from hallucinations and becomes deluded that Lily is trying to steal her part, forcing her to undergo a complete transformation. It is the epitome of a psychological thriller, and is directed by Darren Aronofsky, famous for The Wrestler.

It sounds like an average plot, and to be fair, after the first half an hour I was getting a little impatient for it to 'get on with it', but then I must have spoken too soon. Cue lesbian sex, self-harm and masturbation scenes, coupled with frantic music and more than a few scream/ jump out of your seat moments. I honestly came out of the cinema a nervous wreck, and it is possibly one of the most traumatic films I have ever seen. This seemed to be the general consensus; as upon leaving we were all chattering away about how frightened we were and which bits were the most chilling.

Looking past the fact that it scared me witless, you have to congratulate such a bold film. It goes to places that would make the inner prude come out of the most sexual of people, and the cast are all fully committed to the roles they play. Natalie Portman is perfectly cast, as not only does she portray the temperament of the character, but she has the tiny skeletal frame that is commonplace amongst many professional ballet dancers.

I would recommend this film if you want to see something different- it is sure to be spoken about a lot this year so make sure you don't miss out! Just go prepared with a hand to squeeze and a jacket to cover your eyes!